The Diary, Er, JOURNAL of Daniel Edgar Bones

[Daniel Bones]

The term has barely begun and I'm finding myself caught between two people. At least, that's the way I'm looking at it. Maybe I'm not. Maybe they just want friendship and maybe they are friends. I'm not sure; they didn't seem too friendly.

I'm, of course, talking about Dominique Weasley and Rowan Dalton.

It doesn't surprise me I feel either of them attractive, but they obviously don't seem to like each other very much. I sensed some tension. I guess it could be sexual tension, but that's to be determined. I think it's just regular tension.

Dominique, after all, seemed annoyed when he showed up. Rowan seemed to be a little surprised. Maybe I'm reading where there's nothing but I don't know. I want to get to know them both, but I think I'll have to divide my time.

Mum would be pleased about Dominique since she's a Weasley. I think the Christmas party will be fun if we become fast friends.

I'm nervous about Rowan, however. I think we were flirting. I don't know. I've never flirted much since I really haven't ever needed to. I don't know what to think. Maybe he's just being nice. Someone as popular as him would have to be nice on some level, wouldn't they?

[Daniel Bones]

I met a few new people.

There's Raleigh who helped me figure things. I value her honesty and opinion. She's in Gryffindor and is going to make a really good friend. I can tell she's bright. She speaks in a way that tells me that she thinks before she speaks. That's really something I should look into.

And then in the common room, I met Olivia. She's shy and sweet. I'm not sure what she thinks of me. She's a year below me and I've heard she doesn't really talk. I'm flattered she talked to me.

Now, as for Dominique and Rowan ...

Tonight, I ran into Rowan after class. He was soaked and I made a stupid joke about it. Then we went outside and teased each other some more. Then he asked me to surprise him, so I kissed him.

I've never done anything like that before.

We kissed a couple other times and then went inside, changed, and went to the Prefect's Bathroom. There we kissed some more, ended up falling into the water. It felt like we were the only two people in the world.

He told me that he would protect me and I'm not sure what that means. Although I may have an idea.

I want to tell Kamilla about it, but I don't know how. How do you tell someone you're certain you're falling in love with their cousin?

About Dominique ... I haven't seen her. I'm going to make a special effort to find her. I have to tell her before she gets the wrong idea about us. She's a good person - I'm sure she'll understand.

But how am I going to tell Mum?

[Daniel Bones]

I saw Dominique today and I showed her a side of me I'm sure she never expected. The second I left the library, I made a beeline for the common room, but he caught up to me and acted like he hadn't done anything wrong. He said he just wanted to walk with me to my common room. I gave him a look and he just grinned.

He's harder to understand this year above any other. Of course, I've come a long way from the nervous first year that he so nicely helped. And to think he's carrying grudges to this day, making me pay for it years later.

What happens if Rowan and I do become a couple? Will he target him? Will he try to ruin our relationship?

I just don't understand why he's so preoccupied with me. I never did a thing wrong. Neither of us did really. All of this has escalated and I'm worried. So worried.

When I see Dominique, I'll apologize, but I don't think I'll be able to explain. I don't know if I want to.

[Daniel Bones]

I have apologized to Dominique. Everything seems to be okay with her.

I saw Kamilla yesterday. I sort of told her about my relationship with Jonathan. I didn't want to go into detail and I refuse to. I've put that chapter of my life to bed. He wasn't who I thought I was and I'm through with him, but he doesn't seem to understand that I just want him to disappear from my life altogether.

Tonight I met Rowan far from prying eyes. He suggested the towers and I couldn't help but wonder why. When I got there I understood, the sunset was fantastic.

I told him I loved him and he told me the same.

He asked me to be his lover and I agreed.

I told him about how Dad is coming to Hogsmeade and he promised to come with me.

He's so bad for me.

I don't know how to tell him that I asked Olivia to the ball. I hope he won't be too upset.

[Daniel Bones]

It's been a long time since I've written anything, but just so you know, journal, I have officially lost it completely.

I had a chance to repair my relationship with Rowan after the ball debacle and his admission of cheating with Jon, but I blew it. I kissed Ashley and he saw. He said I was no better than him for kissing another boy. And it's true. I can be so self-righteous sometimes and it's kind of disgusting.

But you know, me being my brilliant self made it sound like I might possibly choose Ashley over him and he didn't take that well. I just meant that I wanted to figure things out. And apparently the way I figure things out is by yelling loudly at Jon.

I was so surprised he didn't say anything. He just kind of stood there and looked at me like he felt like he deserved it. Am I wrong about him? Is he really not the scumbag I think he is? I mean, he seems to be good enough for Sadie. She's going to marry him. I always thought he was out to get Kamilla, but I guess not. Kamilla must've seen sense.

Maybe it's time to forgive him. And maybe it's time I go explain myself to Rowan before I lose him forever.